Shit, it's good stuff. I've always thought it was good stuff, but right now the shit im going through, it fits me mood. I bought the new sneaker pimps album on a whim and it's damn good. Different than Becoming X, but still kick ass.
This was all started by reviewing this gothy trip hop duo Collide on www.garageband.com, which BTW if you are a musicion you should check it out, it's REALLY cool. Anyways, Collide is the best thing I've heard in a while, and I need to buy their CD, of course I have no money since my account was overdrawn and I was charged like a mutha, but it's all clear now. I know im contradicting myslef, why did I just buy Sneaker Pimps? Because it was on sale, and I was buying other shit anyway. Fuck yo.
I want to say a lot of things to a handful of certain people, but I don't know if I will.
it's funny that when you decide that if someday asks you something directly you will be completely honest with them, but nobody ever asks anything. Except yvetta, hah, good 'ol yvetta always asking me crazy shit. Sort of a "How are you feeling?" "Down" "Why" "Problems with such and such" "Oh, how so?" etc. etc. etc.
Audrey is absofuckinglutely amazing though. We don't ever have any problems. It's really nice, and exactly what we both needed. WHEW! Good stuff.
So now im going through that whole shit transition between teen and adulthood. I need to go to more crazy diverse events.
My song, The Awakening is something I can really be proud of. I've never made anything like it. It gives me hope. I will be doing this shit for a long time. I also need to get reason, im getting tired of chopping up loops to make my on melodies and beats. Ergh.
My darker side is definitley coming out more, Fall is coming....sweet......sweet fall.
I am in constant physical pain, and it really hurts! Sometimes I wonder how constant physical pain would change somebody. It has certainly changed me. I think most people should go through this shit, it's really humbling. I am thankful for this experiance, but I want it to end.....always. I honestly don't th ink I could survive through this again.
I know I whine about it a lot, but I need to get it out. I hate contradicting myself, but fuck, I dunno what to say. heh, I just said but fuck. My sillyness is profuse, I don't even know if that's the right fucking word. FAK!
I was going to say something, but now I forget. I wonder how *pause*
Fuck, now im being kicked off the net by my mother. Time to go.
I just don't want to be alone.....except when I do. Goodbye.........